Last night I was looking on my phone at this app I have called "Love Quotes." I do this from time to time, if I cannot sleep, or if I am bored at night and looking through my phone passes the time. But last night I couldn't get this one quote out of my head. "Love is hard work, and sometimes work hurts."
I pondered it for a while, and remembered instances where love has been like work, tedious and sometimes mundane. And, I remembered all the times I cried and cursed the word love, proclaiming that it sucks and it hurts when it doesn't work out like you had planned.
But, now this morning I am looking at this quote in a whole new way...
For the past three weeks work has been somewhat hectic, and I have also been dealing with a lot of personal life changes. It seems that one day I know exactly what I want to do with my future, and another day I am questioning my decisions. I try to pray about what the right choices are, and imagine my future in a positive, bright way. And, although I am moving forward by huge leaps and bounds of progress, like work, my life sometimes feels stuck in a way.
I have these three websites at work that I use every day to complete my job. One has been down going on a month, the other started giving me trouble this week, and the other I haven't been able to open all semester. And, I think, Lord, how am I supposed to accomplish my tasks at work without the proper tools??!!??
In my life, I question this very same thing. Like these websites that sit and are constantly loading, I too have been "loading" for quite some time. I have lived "alone" for the past three weeks, his stuff in boxes all throughout the house, watching his 52" flat screen t.v. after a long day at work, using silverware that's no longer in a drawer, but on top of the microwave just waiting to be loaded in the U-Haul...
I am constantly redecorating in my head, and going to stores pricing new items for my kitchen that say just Michelle, not Michelle &...
Lord, please...let these websites and my life finally speed up so I can get both of these very important "jobs" done!!
